phoebewong; // "I don't get why she cares so much"

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You don’t get it? Maybe because all this time you made her feel like she was special. You made it seem like you wanted to be with her as much as she wanted to be with you. You made her feel like she was the only girl in the world. She fell for you, hard. But all this time you didn’t even want her. You led her on and played with her feelings. She gave up everything for you.. & you wonder why she cares so much?

It’s so ironic. You went from telling me you have feelings for me to saying that you don’t want to give me mix signals. Telling me that you never meant to lead me on & telling me how it would hurt you to know that you’ve hurt me. But you know what? After all this time, you tell me now. Do you think I don’t feel a least bit upset? I mean what happened to everything you said before? How about the things we did.. do you ever even think about the memories we had? Because I know I do.. I still have those movie tickets, basketball game tickets.. even things as simple as the korean bbq business card. Maybe sounds a bit childish, but I kept them. Everytime I go to places we went before, I would get flashbacks in my mind. Good & bad. I guess I’m just a bit disappointed at how everything’s turning out. Do you even care about me still?

I don’t even think you know what you did to me. I’m in the position where I almost feel as if I can’t turn back to have a life without you. All the things I went through because of you.. I honestly don’t think you’ll ever know all of it. I just don’t want you to feel guilty of anything because I know how much I hate it when I know you’re really upset. I don’t use anything that had happened between us against you because I guess I’m just not the type of person to hold grudges. Time after time, I would forgive you of things you did to me because I still really want you in my life. I don’t even know how to let other guys in my heart because there’s you in the back of my mind all the time. It’s like nobody can be compared to you. I feel like we have so much in common. I’ve actually gave up so much for you, cut off so many people by accident because I thought this really meant something to you. Even when you told me that I shouldn’t wait for you, I still feel like I can wait for you forever. I’m just that stupid.

(Source: loljessica, via its-cathyy)

9 months ago

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