When people approximate how long someone is going to be with someone.. I think it’s really disrespectful. Especially when it’s a serious relationship that took a long way to get to.
I have no shame in admitting what I did or do. But at the same time, I realized that not many people would understand me or my situation. I’m proud to say that I don’t regret a single thing I did so far. I’m really content with my life right now & I honestly could not be more grateful.
I have alot of expectations for things for the future. I don’t know why.. I kinda just do. I feel like all this life I haven’t been normal.. Even when it comes to my house, I want to live in something extraordinary. Not something that everyone else has.
I miss you as soon as soon you bring me back home. And that’s the feeling that will never change. I never want to leave when I need to. I never want to go home when I’m with you. Even when I’m in the midst of falling asleep, I’d rather fight that tiredness.
I’m probably the happiest I’ve ever been. I don’t think I can thank you enough for everything you do for me & make me feel. I know I’ve been constantly typing up happy posts nowadays & the things I say might be a little repetitive but I can’t help but replay our times together.. like I could literally be just in the middle of doing something & suddenly something we did would pop up on my mind..
I probably sound like a idiot.. & crazy & obsessive.. but I’m legit serious. I’m just so happy.
Being such a worried person before, I really didn’t expect too much. I thought we were progressing too fast at first but now that I think about it, I’m glad you have such good initiative. I would never be able to initiate anything since I’m just shy & scared like that. But you made me open up to you so much.. you make me feel that you really want this & it makes me feel so swoon.
You probably won’t ever see this & I don’t even know if I want you to or not, but thanks for everything. Thanks for making everyday easier for me when I’m so stressed. Thanks for making me feel that something real like this can actually happen. Thanks for being such a sweet heart.
It has been a interesting journey so far & I hope & I know it’ll just get better from here.
It’s been a while since I’ve actually been able to remain “happy” for such a long period of time. I mean sure there were little ups & downs but they weren’t really a really big deal or anything. It’s almost hard to process right now just thinking about the past couple of days with you & the last couple of times we saw eachother. Especially the past 2 days. I just never had it this good before.. but at the same time, neither have I put this much trust on anyone before too.
Ever felt like you’re so happy, everything just seems really unreal tho? I guess that’s how I’m feeling now.. I’m just so glad that we’ve gone this far & is doing so good right now. It took baby steps to get us to where we are now, but it was worth it.. having such a healthy relationship wasn’t something that I thought would happen but I guess when you least unexpect things, amazing things really do happen(:
People are actually so inconsiderate sometimes.. like I know they might be joking, but something that I take seriously, isn’t a joke to me at all. To say that I’m “trying” to be something just makes my heart sink a bit because I’m working towards a goal for myself. It’s just annoying when people think they know me so well when they really don’t. I don’t take these things to my heart, but when it’s said right at the moment, it kinda hurts.
Sometimes, I’m still in disbelief how far we got.. how we are now. I guess it’s sort of interesting to think all the back & all those little series of events that led to how things are now.
I haven’t been able to open myself up to anyone like this in so long. In fact, I don’t think I’ve been like this with anyone at all. Being such a guarded person, every single step I take with you, I take very carefully. I don’t want to be mistreated or taken advantage of. I know I keep bringing these kinda things up, but it is just something that I’ll always have a little fear for.
I really hope that when we’re already at this point that it’s no longer a game. I hope you really mean everything you do & say to me because this feels real. I feel like something’s really there & I really want to believe that.
I don’t know how I went from being afraid that we’re progressing way too fast to missing being by your side all the time. I don’t know where we’re going with this but I hope you’re true to your words atleast.
I recently got a tattoo that says “Niente accade per caso” which directly translates to “Nothing happens by chance” in italian & as most people’s tattoos, this has a great deal of meaning to me as well.
I’m still at a very young age, but I guess I can say that for a person in general, I’ve went through quite alot of things. Sometimes I feel like things I’ve went through weren’t even real at all.. it’s almost like it’s all a movie. In the end, I guess everything that has happened has really taught me a lesson & given me some good experience hence why the tattoo reminds me that everything happens for a reason. To remind myself that whatever that happens in my life, isn’t by chance. It is to make me grow & become a better person. & that’s what I want to be.